I always forget that change means that things will change. Or maybe it’s closer to say that I am surprised how much things change. Or maybe I am surprised by changes that affect me that I didn’t anticipate. I do like to anticipate. That’s why I am such a good chess player. The unfortunate thing about my ability to play chess is that I can only play one game without totally burning out my ability to anticipate. I overload my brain, so I never get very far with anticipating.

Generally, it’s my rule of thumb to not blog about work, but this post is really only indirectly related to work. Leaving Marketwire and joining the team at Zoom has made for many changes that I both expected and didn’t expect. I anticipated that leaving MW would lead towards a new rhythm—a new daily schedule that would be a bit more concrete—that would allow for positive habits and routines. This has happened. It is taking longer than I expected to get used to. For instance, I don’t have the same time that I had at MW to blog. I have not found a rhythm at Zoom that allows for me to blog. So it might mean blogging in the evenings or at lunch or before work in the morning.

I am going to put my heart out on the line for a moment. The one thing I didn’t expect is that I miss my friends at Marketwire. A nice and normal person might think this would be an obvious thing to anticipate. However, my problem is that I don’t miss people. It’s not because I don’t care but because I just generally expect that I will see them again—whether or not that is true isn’t important in my head. At least that is how I justify it. I find myself missing the companionship of that place because we all worked so closely together. I am sure as time goes on (and as it has) I will make similar connections. This time inbetween feels a little lonely.

I guess getting settled into new patterns is never easy and things never calm down as fast as I want or expect them too. I wanted to assure you that I haven’t abandoned this place, but that I just haven’t found a home for it in my new routine.