Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. – Albert Einstein
I keep making minor changes in my life and expect that they will induce major changes, but I am still just the same guy that I have always been and it’s not enough.
I left Marketwire expecting that a regular schedule with regular hours would help me to do more. Write more, read more, be more. I now have regular hours and a regular schedule, but just found more ways to waste my time. I worked at St. Peter’s Abbey for a summer thinking that I would write more, but I just spent my time thinking about how I wanted to waste my time. In University, I did a mentorship with Shelley Leedahl and took 3 classes because I wanted extra time to write. I just wasted time and got very little writing done.
I keep doing the same thing, keep getting the same result and always hope that I will get a different one. Right now I am hoping to buy a house so that I can have my own space and then I will write. But I will put any money on the fact that if I get it, I will just waste time.
I will propose a new truth to you today—Insanity: knowing the answer, but never using it.
Even with your pretend desire to make out with an 18 year old...
I ain’t touching this one with a ten foot pole… :rolleyes_tb:
Maybe putting money on it will be motivation. And if you buy a house, that will be a lot of money. So who knows, maybe it will work. Or maybe you’ll just spend lots of time mowing the lawn.
Brenda: I wouldn’t expect anything less from you!
Ian: Well, maybe the fresh air from mowing the lawn would inspire me?
I totally hear you, if I could only get motivated at work I would work harder…
Sometimes I stop reading a book that I can’t get into, I never used to, I used to agonizingly push to the finish, but now I just set it down and start a new one! Not sure what I am trying to say?? Maybe you need to set down writing and try a new hobby for a while… or just a new type of writing… The solution to all my problems and the the cause of all my problems has been kiting, its all I want to do!!!
good luck with the insane thing, don’t worry it gets better!
cd
What happened to your idea of writing here, on RSP? Just having at ‘er.
Without realizing it you have stumbled on a basic component of human nature, I didn’t realize it myself until I read it in a Kurt Vonnegut book. There is nothing sweeter in life than puttering around (some may call wasting time). I used to feel guilty as you seem to but it’s something almost everyone does. You WILL go insane if you try to be a driven, high output person – that’s something too many aspire to be. Sometimes it’s just not in your character. I am not saying you should sleep all day but you need to find the right balance for you and not feel guilty about it.
thanks Doug, I think I need more of that input, slow down a little, etc and not feel guilty about it…
cd