Monthly Archives: June 2009

Something to be passionate about

I’ve been thinking about the suburbs a lot lately. I’ve been thinking a lot about what they mean to me and about me. Often, I feel the need to defend myself for making that choice. I say something like I live in the suburbs of 50 years ago. Which is true in the sense that Calgary has grown so much that I am about half way between the core and the end of the city. My house is 50 years old. But, more than defending that choice to other people, I need to defend it to myself simply because I never really imagined things going this way.

I guess the real problem is coming to terms with how plain I really am. When I was 18 I was sure I was something special. Meant for something great or meant to do something great. University was a bit of a stall for all of this. I was studying to be something great. A great writer, I hope(d). Over the last few years, entering the real world my ideas have been challenged. I worked 9-5 jobs. I certainly wasn’t producing anything great. And I have lived in a city where greatness is more often than not measured by wealth. And the culmination of all these expectations and realities was topped by moving to the burbs.

The suburbs represent a plan. A plain plan. Societies plan. A white-collar plan. I move to the suburbs, have a job, pay my taxes and have kids. Frankly, all of those ideas seem awful and some are terrifying (mostly kids). I’m about as on-grid as possible. I’m living up to the dream of every generic white male. I even painted my fence white. But it was a little off-white. So that makes it better.

So there has been a certain amount of dissonance between what I thought I might be living and what I am living. But I’ve also had to come to the conclusion that even though I hold extremely liberal ideologies, I am actually quite a conservative person. And that I am white and male and boring. And so maybe I should just live that life. But I still can’t help the fact that I do want more.

And ultimately I think the real problem is not that I live in the suburbs or that I am living some plain life and not a great life. My real problem is that I spend all my time planning for when I will have a great life that I forget to make it great now.

I think the suburbs can be incredibly pacifying when everything is made so easy. But the suburbs aren’t the problem. I am not going to be any better or worse of a writer if I lived in a small condo in Kensington (trendy neighbourhood in Calgary). I just need to be great where I am now.

I have something to be passionate about and that’s creating. So that’s what I’m working on. Finding ways to create and I’m not going to plan for it anymore—when I have the right desk, or the right computer, or the right lighting—I’m just going to start. So there is a lot you can look forward to here.

Time to be a man

I never thought this day would come. But I think it’s time to be a man. And frankly, I’m not really all that interested in becoming a man. It seems like its probably going to be awful. What I mean by man is taking responsibility. So what I am saying is that I don’t want to be responsible. For the past two weeks, I have got to work on time. I’ve actually been to everything on time. And if you know me, well that’s not really me. But it seems like time that I start going to bed earlier and get up earlier. Basically, my end goal here is that by the time I’m 70 I’ll be in bed by 6:30 and up by 3:30. The days of sleeping in are probably still here, but they will have to wait until the weekend. If you need me, you’ll probably need to be up by 6:45AM.

Myths aren’t lies

Lately, I’ve been hoping that sooner or later I would move away from all that doubt that bogs me down. I figure maybe 30 will be a better time. That’s about all I can figure right now. But I was searching around for a quote by Joseph Campbell and I was sure that I had posted this previously. But I hadn’t. And it’s absolutely my favourite story about myths. It reminded me about what I think about myths and made me feel a little better.

Joseph Campbell, Thou Art That

Let me begin by explaining the history of my impulse to place metaphor at the center of our exploration of Western spirituality.

When the first volume of my Historical Atlas of World Mythology, The Way of the Animal Powers came out, the publishers sent me on a publicity tour. This is the worst kind of all possible tours because you move unwillingly to those disc jockeys and newspaper people, themselves unwilling to read the book they are supposed to talk to you about, in order to give it public visibility.

The first question I would be asked was always, “What is a myth?” That is a fine beginning for an intelligent conversation. In one city, however, I walked into a broadcasting station for a live half-hour program where the interviewer was a young, smart-looking man who immediately warned me, “I’m tough, I put it right to you. I’ve studied law.”

The red light went on and he began argumentatively, “The word ‘myth,’ means ‘a lie.’ Myth is a lie.”

So I replied with my definition of myth. “No, myth is not a lie. A whole mythology is an organization of symbolic images and narratives, metaphorical of the possibilities of human experience and the fulfillment of a given culture at a given time.”

“It’s a lie,” he countered.

“It’s a metaphor.”

“It’s a lie.”

This went on for about twenty minutes. Around four or five minutes before the end of the program, I realized that this interviewer did not really know what a metaphor was. I decided to treat him as he was treating me.

“No,” I said, “I tell you it’s metaphorical. You give me an example of a metaphor.”

He replied, “You give me an example.”

I resisted, “No, I’m asking the question this time.” I had not taught school for thirty years for nothing. “And I want you to give me an example of a metaphor.”

The interviewer was utterly baffled and even went so far as to say, “Let’s get in touch with some school teacher.” Finally, with something like a minute and a half to go, he rose to the occasion and said, “I’ll try. My friend John runs very fast. People say he runs like a deer. There’s a metaphor.”

As the last seconds of the interview ticked off, I replied, “That is not the metaphor. The metaphor is: John is a deer.”

He shot back, “That’s a lie.”

“No,” I said, “That is a metaphor.”

And the show ended. What does that incident suggest about our common understanding of metaphor?

It made me reflect that half the people in the world think that the metaphors of their religious traditions, for example, are facts. And the other half contends that they are not facts at all. As a result we have people who consider themselves believers because they accept metaphors as facts, and we have others who classify themselves as atheists because they think religious metaphors are lies.

Pee-on-these

pianese

I just uploaded more images to my “The Yard” photoset on Flickr. Everything but the cucumber and zucchini (I spelled that correctly on my first try, by the way) are up. The garden is in motion. Even the grass I planted is starting to come up. And the peonies look like they will be beautiful.

And with all that motion, there is a frost warning tonight. Poor ‘maters. Hope covering them up will help.